TRUTH: I have been sitting on the couch or in a chair,
watching TV every night for nearly all of 2023.
Up until yesterday, that was my life.
I actually was planning to write about Ruston on Netflix...
like I am an aspiring movie discusser.
I am not a movie critic -
I do not want to review movies!
(But, really, it's a super amazing,
mind-opening, inspiring story.
Highly recommend...)
Again, this morning, asking the same questions:
who am I?
&
who do I want to be?
There are these checkpoints in our lives,
moments of DECISION.
Well, today, y'all,
I am
ANSWERING THE QUESTION.
Yes, my generational default
is to sit in a chair or on a couch, with poor posture, and deteriorate.
My generational default
is to deteriorate and linger
in a half-life
on a couch,
get an illness or dis-ease,
and slog through y e a r s that way...
until I die alone.
Truly, that's the heritage.
I saw where this path leads, so clearly, yesterday.
In 2023, I built a cocoon for myself. It felt
safe, warm, very comfortable, familiar and reliable,
I could trust it.
It was steady and routine and predictable. It was
a way to buffer my feelings -
to not feel.
It started as a healing REST
and it became a way to HIDE.
You can't feel hurt if you never leave your
(really cute, adorable and abundant)
home.
(Which is not true. I can hurt myself easily with my de-FAULTS.)
So that was the past. I literally
wrote it on a slip of paper
and burned it last night.
Here we are again - NOW WHAT?
The other side of this hurriedly-typed coin is
there's a new path for me.
It will take courage,
one step at a time,
it will feel
exciting and scary.
Those two feelings are twins.
The only difference between them is how I breathe.
So I will breathe
and take a step.
I will generate courage on purpose.
The feeling of courage is now a goal for me.
I want to generate and feel courage
in order to live a full, bright, abundant life
with those I love and
those I haven't met yet.
TODAY'S DEEP BREATH: here's a practical juju nugget, a collective Next Best Decision.
I don't know what's coming.
But I believe that the steps will be worth the courageous effort.
And
I am going to share
this journey with you,
my fellow courageous couch sitters.
You know who you are.
Kids are gone.
Life is on repeat,
and you feel a little empty
and melancholy and
like you spent all your great ideas over all the years
on everyone else...only to sit
and crave
the next season of Bridgerton!
(which I think is in May.)
Write your own story! Share it back with me!
Let's make a courageous choice,
take a small step,
leading to HUGE results.
Let's not sit it out.
As was said on the Golden Bachelor three times:
"...get off the couch!"
I'm going to report here -
the scary, the fun,
the disappointments and the laughter.
If you need to spend 2024 witnessing my endeavors
before you make your own,
that's fine.
I hope you get inspired.
Because you know I'll be honest - and I'll be feeling all the things.
Who will I meet?
What will I create...how will I lead,
as I so often tend to take the reigns.
Or maybe I'll let go of that and just follow what others have created...
Drag Bingo?
Speed dating?
Karaoke?
I'm a sober woman on a path of light,
living her absolute best days,
generating energy to share with her 'sisters.'
I will hold a torch if you'd like to follow me.
PODCAST VERSION: here.