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ep. 57: off the couch

TRUTH: I have been sitting on the couch or in a chair,


watching TV every night for nearly all of 2023.



Up until yesterday, that was my life.


I actually was planning to write about Ruston on Netflix...


like I am an aspiring movie discusser.


I am not a movie critic -


I do not want to review movies!



(But, really, it's a super amazing,


mind-opening, inspiring story.


Highly recommend...)



Again, this morning, asking the same questions:


who am I?


&


who do I want to be?



There are these checkpoints in our lives,


moments of DECISION.


Well, today, y'all,


I am


ANSWERING THE QUESTION.



Yes, my generational default


is to sit in a chair or on a couch, with poor posture, and deteriorate.


My generational default


is to deteriorate and linger


in a half-life


on a couch,


get an illness or dis-ease,


and slog through  y e a r s  that way...


until I die alone.



Truly, that's the heritage.



I saw where this path leads, so clearly, yesterday.



In 2023, I built a cocoon for myself. It felt


safe, warm, very comfortable, familiar and reliable,


I could trust it.


It was steady and routine and predictable. It was


a way to buffer my feelings -


to not feel.


It started as a healing REST


and it became a way to HIDE.



You can't feel hurt if you never leave your


(really cute, adorable and abundant)


home.


(Which is not true. I can hurt myself easily with my de-FAULTS.)




So that was the past. I literally


wrote it on a slip of paper


and burned it last night.



Here we are again - NOW WHAT?



The other side of this hurriedly-typed coin is


there's a new path for me.


It will take courage,


one step at a time,



it will feel


exciting and scary.


Those two feelings are twins.


The only difference between them is how I breathe.


So I will breathe


and take a step.



I will generate courage on purpose.


The feeling of courage is now a goal for me.


I want to generate and feel courage


in order to live a full, bright, abundant life


with those I love and


those I haven't met yet.



TODAY'S DEEP BREATH: here's a practical juju nugget, a collective Next Best Decision.



I don't know what's coming.


But I believe that the steps will be worth the courageous effort.



And


I am going to share


this journey with you,


my fellow courageous couch sitters.



You know who you are.


Kids are gone.


Life is on repeat,


and you feel a little empty


and melancholy and


like you spent all your great ideas over all the years


on everyone else...only to sit


and crave


the next season of Bridgerton!


(which I think is in May.)



Write your own story! Share it back with me!


Let's make a courageous choice,


take a small step,


leading to HUGE results.


Let's not sit it out.



As was said on the Golden Bachelor three times:


"...get off the couch!"



I'm going to report here -


the scary, the fun,


the disappointments and the laughter.



If you need to spend 2024 witnessing my endeavors


before you make your own,


that's fine.


I hope you get inspired.


Because you know I'll be honest - and I'll be feeling all the things.



Who will I meet?


What will I create...how will I lead,


as I so often tend to take the reigns.


Or maybe I'll let go of that and just follow what others have created...



Drag Bingo?


Speed dating?


Karaoke?



I'm a sober woman on a path of light,


living her absolute best days,


generating energy to share with her 'sisters.'



I will hold a torch if you'd like to follow me.



PODCAST VERSION: here.


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